this shit ain’t easy.

Right now, my life it kinda shitty. I mean it’s far from horrible, but for my liking it’s shitty. Nothing is going the way I want it to; my depression and anxiety are back in full swing and I don’t know what to do. I keep reminding myself that at 22 years-old I don’t need to have my life figured out; but for goodness sakes its hard. The last time I posted something was maybe sometime in December months before that I was feeling unmotivated to write, so I asked two of my friends to help. I figured that if I had other people working on my blog with me I’d feel like I’m getting things down. Even that didn’t last long, I blamed it on me being busy with school and not having ideas to write about. When in reality, I just didn’t want to do it. I got lazy. I don’t know how these big-time bloggers and vloggers do it; how do you post every day, snapchat… Instagram… twitter… facebook… AND go to school and work a full-time job. Granted I’d love to be one of those big-time bloggers (fingers crossed), but who has that energy right now.
Honestly I feel lied to, I thought being 22 was supposed to be magical and full of fun. I mean isn’t that what Taylor Swift told us. The truth is being 22/23 sucks! We’re supposed to be figuring out or lives and starting careers but it isn’t that easy. Its hard right now, trying to move and get a new job, nevertheless in a new state. I know it’s not just me, so many of you are going through shit too. It may be different shit than mine but it’s still shit. So here’s the thing, there is a lot of shitty stuff happening not just in our personal lives but the world around us. BUT there are also so some really great things that are going to come out of all this shit.
So, we’re pressing the restart button. I’m going to try my damn hardest to post at LEAST three times a week, whether it be a recipe, diy project or just a rant; my goal for the next three months is to post three times a week. I want to be doing so much more with my life, so I’m going to start, there is no point in waiting, and I’m excited for these next few months. Welcome to “This Shit Ain’t Easy” series of Ileana Please. Where I’ll go on and on about the great things happening and then rant about the shitty things and how I’m pushing through, along with a recipe and diy project here and there.
This’ll be fun.

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